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had her funeral today.
it was…emotional.
lots of tears.
still wearing the purple ribbons in memory.
I do miss her alot.
The funeral offered a…sort of closure, in a way.

I wonder if you watched your funeral from Heaven? I hope you did, I hope you saw how upset everyone was with this accident, and just how many people love you. Will always love you. You heard your dad, you’ll always be a family of five, even if it’s just in spirit.

Seeing your coffin today Emma…gave me that sense of finality. The sense of finality I needed to realise that this IS real, and this HAS happened. It IS a tragic accident, but still. It happened.

I was able to say goodbye, to tell her I was sorry for being upset, and that she’ll always be my friend.

Her mum was right when she said that Emma was such a loving caring person, she really did care about everyone. All of her friends loved her, and she loved all of them, in her own special way.

And yet, she wouldn’t talk to other people about her problems
“But mum, why should I burden my friends with my problems when they have so many of their own?”
That’s what her mum told us she’d say.

Oh Emma, if only we could have all talked to you.

I’ll always miss you, have fun in heaven, save me a place.

See you later Emz, xxx

Emma.

You’re not meant to die Emma.

Not at 18.

How can you just leave us all? your family? your friends? your boyfriend?

We all hurt so bad, your parents and sisters especially.

I can’t believe you did that.

It hasn’t sunk in yet Emma, I still expect to see you walk around a corner, with your cheeky grin and say “don’t worry, it was just a joke”.

But you won’t.
I won’t ever see you again.

We didn’t even get to say goodbye Emma, and now we won’t. Not properly.

I know we broke up, and I haven’t spoken to you much recently, but we were just starting to become friends again, and I wasn’t angry at you, not really. I’ll always be your friend, even if you’re up there. I’m sorry.

They’re gonna give you a memorial at college, and we all just…cried for you today, missed lessons, spoke about how surreal this all is, and how we all miss you.

You weren’t meant to die at 18, not with all the stuff you had planned and with everything you wanted to do with your life.
I can’t believe you meant to die Emma, I honestly can’t.
I wish I could understand, I really do.

Manjay misses you,
your mum dad and sisters miss you,
we all miss you.

You’re loved by everyone Emma, and you’ll always be remembered as the amazing girl you are.

We love you.

Watch over us from heaven please?

Goodbye Emma. You’ll always be in our hearts and remembered
we love you.
xxx